There are times in history that I just remember where I was. For some, it was the Kennedy assassination. (I am a tad young for that.) For most of us it’s September 11th 2001. 9/11— I will always remember where I was that day. I also remember where I was the day the space shuttle crashed in ‘86 with a teacher on board, and random things like watching the news when Elvis Presley died on a rainy day in August because it was my 8th birthday.
Today my husband is having shoulder surgery and I am sitting in a small waiting room watching the Judge Kavanaugh/Christine Ford sexual assault hearing. I will always remember where I was on this day.
Some things just stick with you.
I have written before that I am a rape and sexual assault survivor. I remember those days as well. I was 15 and then 19. Some of the detail escape me. Alcohol, trauma, and 30 years will do that to a person for sure! At the time, a cloudy memory and my own doubts and fears kept me from coming fully forward and prosecuting with what I knew to be the truth. Some people believed me and others didn’t. All of this, the events, the attackers, and my own emotions, haunted me for years. I drank, I rebelled, I sinned, I ran, I made jokes, but nothing silenced my torment until the day I gave my life to Jesus. November 17, 1992
The Bible says that Jesus came to bring good news to the afflicted; to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to captives and freedom to prisoners, that He comforts those who mourn and rebuilds what is ruined!
When I learned of this, I ran and threw my sin on to His back! He took my sin and shame and hurts and haunts, all of it willingly and gave me a clean slate! A heart of flesh and not of stone and a desire to love Him and follow Him. It’s as if my deep wounds were healed in an instant and only scars remain as if to say, “Me too! You’ll be okay! Jesus heals!”
Perfect Love always drives out fear!
Light always drives out darkness!
Jesus also came to offer forgiveness and healing for my attackers, for Bret Kavanaugh and Christine Ford, and for you.
To offer a hurting and broken world forgiveness of sins and abundance of life. The Bible says we are all ‘sinners who have fallen short’ in need of a savior. Not one of us is innocent or blameless. My freedom in Christ allowed me to forgive my assailants because I realized that I myself am a sinner saved by grace!
I’ve made a lot of mistakes in my life, and I know there are others who’ve made mistakes too and are in need of forgiveness. I wonder from time to time if the young men who assaulted me ever feel bad, have they changed their lives, Do they have spouse and children and careers like I do? Are they tormented or are they thriving? Do they know Jesus?
There is freedom in Christ! Freedom and forgiveness and second chances!
For us all!
Current events like these always find me burdened for my children and wanting to be sure and talk with them. They are all so big and tall now, practically grown. I saw my son for a few moments this AM–
I reminded him how to treat people.
To never treat a woman as “less than”. She is a child of God just like you!
Never joke about sex.
Never be sexually inappropriate.
NO means NO!
There is so much to say and he is only 13! I’m sure he felt like he was drinking from a fire hydrant at 7AM.I remind him what the Bible says.
“Flee even the appearance of evil.” and that “Bad company corrupts good morals.” But it is still an issue of the heart and none of us are above reproach so I remind him to cling to Jesus daily for help in this broken twisted world and to live by the golden rule. As he scrolls on his phone waiting for a ride to school, I want to go into a lecture about what he puts before his eyes…
but I save it for another time.
There will be another time and many more conversations to come. I kiss him on the shoulder (he’s too tall to kiss on the head anymore.) and I once again put my trust in Jesus, the one who died for me so that I may live. I need Him in a big way today.
Raise your hand if you need Jesus!
He is waiting.